I didn’t know who I was before, so I didn’t know what I had to lose. I struggled with the need to be accepted, so I accepted anything. I took on tasks that served me no purpose. I entertained friendships, relationships, & activities that added no value to my life. I broke promises I made to myself because I had no drive, no focus, & no strategy. I somewhat had a plan, but no provision, so I let that stop me. My intentions were good, but I couldn’t execute what I hadn’t fully given my all to..
I was saying one thing & doing another. I chose to ignore what I knew for what was more comfortable. I made terrible decisions, then beat myself up about them. I went to God with the same old prayer, asking for forgiveness of the same old things! My life became one still circle. I would pray for a way out, then when the opportunity presented itself, I compromised with sin.
See, what you magnify, you get more of! & I chose to feed my corrupt nature. I chose to be who people said I was. I adapted to my surroundings, & I dimmed my light for the sake of others’ comfort, instead of being unapologetically chosen, gifted, & bright! I lost myself trying to please others, but God interrupted all that! Instead of keeping my mouth shut & moping in guilt & shame, I made the choice to confess my sins, lay down my burdens, & reap the benefits of God’s precious grace!!! (Everlasting love, peace, & joy) from that day forward, I chose to put one foot in front of the other, REGARDLESS of how I FELT or what life LOOKED like, & because of that, I AM FREE!!!
My prayer is that someone was inspired by this. I pray that you wake up from that slump & surrender to God! It is not too late. You are not too deep in sin, too far astray, or too messed up to be forgiven, set free, & made whole by God. I pray that you give up the need to CONTROL your life. God knows what’s best for you! God’s plans for your life are far greater than your BEST days of dreaming!!!!! If you can dream it, HE can DO it!! Please, let go & let God. He’s waiting on you, with open arms.
1 John 1:9 🦋